And raped me viciously after I gave him consenting sex. He abused me in very humiliating ways for hours while with the purpose of impregnating me and impressing his depraved friends. Video taping me crying for help and release. While I was under the influence or alcohol that I knew of and date rape drugs that I didn't. And wasn't sure if it wasn't my fault. Obviously it was my fault I was there.
Date rape drugs that make you forget the incident until its too late to report. Even though my intuition wouldn't let me shower, I didn't remember why.
That make you forget what happened. But remember later and I remember trying to say Taylor is going to kill you.
And he said that I wouldn't even remember which seemed incredibly unlikely from the position I was in. In pain, told it would be over sooner if it looked like I was enjoying it. While he told his friend to watch me while he went and got a turkey baster to make sure I got pregnant. The rape wasn't enough. They wanted to hurt my baby, and hurt me further through her.
But he was right, I didn't remember even in the morning when he joked about cleaning the turkey baster.. with his friend who 'liked me. Whose parents house it was. Do you think your privileged life can protect you from your karma and being in hell next to him? With me crying and it's just us and you can help me, get me outta there, but you don't?
And Taylor didn't kill him. I didn't even tell Taylor until I remembered months later when we were on court trying to protect her and both of our intuition was going hard and he was almost having a stroke from hbp and stress.
When he said this is not a case of rape, that's when memories of the Harley run flood back. Wtf. That's how I lost my hair stick that my mom got me in Costa Rica that I thought would protect me. It didn't. And Taylor didn't kill him.
And when my people wanted to kill him, break his knees.. I said mercy. Because my daughter is a gift under any circumstances I would do all of it again. She is a light that can't be negated. By any evil.
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