God I miss you today
some version of you where when you get married it isn't spoiled.
But mine was before I realized it was.
But right now I wish I was listening to something or hearing something about something that makes me sad or jealous or angry now
Because instead I'm lonely with myself she left when you hit me or when you said I deserved it or when Jamie hit her head on the wall I knew it was as always had been for me and the last smile from a child a girl she checked out I'm here but not here because I don't want to be destroyed by you anymore so the best of me is gone she'll never be yours I just hope to reconnect with her someday and I can apologize and she can too for leaving me and saving us
