Do u remember me yet? I didn't meet you at the mall when I was 15. I don't know the details but this has been going on for eons.
But I don't know if that means it's time for a change to you but it will never change that I'm woke and I miss you on the beach of Life taking it all in with me. It is the journey that I want to end my destination with and I want to get old with you finding agates and filling our pockets like children every day. Even though our bodies lie and say we are 100 million years old. We laugh and splash and remember when we were so young.
Maybe you will meet me later. Awake and ready to do whatever it takes to be whole with me but right now we both lose and egos win.
someday maybe. In this life we were too much too fast. And young and dumb. But please wake up and meet me later. Wish I knew you when I was older in this life. I just couldn't wait until the right time. I fucked up but meet me later when we are healed and woke. Meet me at Waffle house and we can talk it out. We can move to a cabin by the sea.
We could treasure things like coffee and ganja on the porch in the morning. Our old bodies loving wake and bake more than ever. It would be a joy to be in your presence again.
I let go because everything is telling me I lost u now. Already I fucked up.
And it's healing for both halves that we may never wake up and hold each other again in this life. I may never run my fingers over your eyelids. So now you still don't know me in this life but I don't really care.
But you know women and pleasure. You are a beast. A silver fox but not mine. You are yours. And you can howl at the moon all night long alone. But not with me we are unpacked and wild and free from each other.
And I am mine. And I have to feast on blood and flesh until my pack my children and I are born new and well fed. And I promise to wait for you. And want for you like nobody else can
But I don't know if I can..
You belong to you and I am not a cougar but lioness out for what my family needs. And protecting my kin.. Hunting to get my feast. I am the preying mantis and the butterfly too. The Phoenix and dragon that will not be reduced to a fly sized being to fit you now. Your love me whole and radiant and I love that too In you. Meet me there in the future.
If you dare.
But I will miss you and wish it could have worked here and now. You are my moon. Been visited I know you exist because people have been there and planted a flag. There is moondust from the boots of real astronauts. There is no denying you are real and tides rise and fall when you are full and powerful. But whisper when you are low and I can ignore you and forget I am still a survivor on your island
I am the sun. So intense its hard to not just radiate at a distance but I am alone and no one can reach me. I am alone and feel lonely but look angry and dangerous but I keep providing light and life as I implode daily. And nobody even notices because I look dangerous and unreachable everday. Everyday I am ready to be alone in the darkness, noticing I already am. Alone in the sunspot
We are a powerhouse that people envy when you are awake. And I will wait but not with you. And I hope she comes to soothe you. But won't be me now. I will be waiting and hunting until you are mine again. Protecting my kin.
I will never give up fighting for peace. You deserve peace and so do I. You are my other half and I will wait on the otherside like you waited for me.
Next life still some random place but it will be
more true because of what I am doing here and now. And I won't feel the need to drop my panties so fast to make you see me because instead of seeing me.. it made you see me like all the stupid girls. Not worth your awakening. Not who I am. I was just waiting for you but
Not worth your time and you definitely not worth mine.
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