Still hurts

I want to say I'm here alone. Today just the same as yesterday
living in the future or past I don't know.
Living in the Future or Past who cares today?... I don't.
and that hurts and leaves me angry.
Sorry as i am that the day is long. YOU are not here and i am gone
We aren't counting the days to see ourselves again
The rain fades and pounds relentlessly
And rainbows too...
Same way that the rain Stays and rainbows too ensure that life goes on without you.
Waves crash and my heart beats to the pulse of the world.
Listen and feel
In everything anything more than you.
Here and done before. believe in yourself and be less than anxious and waiting.
Less than.
While you laugh
Real or a dream
?

More and less
It would seem.