Why did you have to be so kind

 In the start everything was gentle and fair and even. Why did you have to be so kind? And play games for fun and surprise with me?

You didn't even know me. But why then hold it all against me and never forgive me for being a human. 

For having been so understanding I do not understand you now. For doing anything to get my attention and passion. To ignore me and my desires now.

Holding me in some kind of purgatory. You forgive but nothing is ever as good again and you never let me forget how much I disappointed you. Everyday is a new day.

Everyday is a new day of trapping and games that I never win. But you say you are here with me now but I don't think you even notice me.

Would not do much for me now that I am yours. Would laugh now if I talk of walking away, because you know I won't, or can't whatever it is. This doesn't feel quite like it, anymore.